I didn’t know you were the way you are

I saw you the way I always see people im jealous of

I saw you as symmetrical and perfect

I built you a nice little place in my head

A place where you were perfect, and thus, in my eyes, you weren’t real, and I didn’t have to care about you

Then I got curious

Im very flawed, but I’ve always been able to make people show their true colors

And that’s when you really screwed me

Because you aren’t perfect

Your far from it

Your broken

And damaged and brave and determined and passionate and

FUCKING CRAZY

Your  raw and authentic and vulnerable

Now your leaving forever

And im glad

Because if you stayed I would get even stupider 

Now I can have those picture perfect memories

I can know you without really having to know you

Well never fight, ill never get hurt, and il

never hurt you

I can use you as a pen to write a new chapter that your not in

Ill never hate you and ill never love you

Because you only exist in my mind

Now I never have to lose you

because im never going to have you

So,

Screw you

And thank you

And ill miss you

And I Probbably love you

And Ill never see you again

But it’s okay, 

Because nothing is static