Letters, words, emotions, and possibly the least rational post about chemicals to ever grace the internet

As follows:

Why is it that you can spend time with one person and it is fun and romantic and exciting

But then life goes on

Why is it that when you spend time with an individual with a nearly identical genetic makeup,

in the same way,

it absolutely fucks your head

Why?

I mean I know love doesn’t “make sense”

But I would think there would at least be a little rationality

Like maybe, “oh, she has a compatible world view, is generally honest, seems loyal, and has a nice face. I will now love her”

But noooooooooo

it can’t be that easy

I envy those who have a all knowing god to tell them that love is sacrificial and forever and unconditional (all of which are beautifull)

But since I’m not personally in that boat,

I have to figure it out all on my own

“Love” as I am attempting to understand it, follows no rules, guidelines, or structure.

And for someone who is obsessed with logic and understanding and order….

The idea that a chemical compound can be released with 2 distinct people,

But fucking holding someone who you know is a complete mismatch for you, who is not anything you have ever found attractive…

Can turn your brain to jelly

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Liquor and lust should beat smoking and snuggles any day of the week

But that doesn’t seem to be the way things work out

Which isn’t much of a surprise

Because things don’t like to work out the way I tell them to

And that’s probably for the best

Cus life seems to be a lot wiser than I am

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And lastly, let me assuage the fears of anyone who is absolutely exhausted of irrelevant confessionals about love….

This is officially my “fuck love” post

So it would follow that I will finally get past this and then stop obsessing and return to whatever this blog was actually intended for.

(Which is still undetermined ;))