A dirty word

A nice way of saying arrogant

But perhaps

Confidence is something

I get to define for myself

—-

I reject arrogant confidence

That everyone will like me

That I am so utterly flawless

That someone would be a fool to dislike, ridicule, or disapprove of me

But MY definition,

Is confidence as

Self worth

Because,

I fucking LOVE me.

And that is NOT something that has come naturally

I grew to love me

Out of a need to protect me

Because I hurt myself so deeply

For so long

So,

I am confident

*That you might not like me*

And I give you permission to see me however you would like to

My confidence

Is really a form of love;

1. Loving myself enough to be genuine and not cut out the parts of myself that aren’t “good enough”

2. Loving other people enough to give them the freedom to see me however they like and to do whatever they chose with their own lives.

I choose not to expend my valuable energy and time,

Trying to cultivate a persona

That really just keeps people from knowing me

Because I am confident

That you might not like me

And I am confident

That we’ll both be okay with that

🙂