I try so hard

And it’s hurt so long

Most have it far worse,

I shouldn’t even take up space

But this is carving me up

Has been since you told me gays would burn

Hells fires keep me up

I go there every night

Body shakes

Believe me

I need help

Believe me

I’ve prayed the prayer

Now I’m here

I know nothing

I feel everything

I am very afraid.

I don’t need people to know my name

But good god

Please let me sleep

I stare at a fan

Believe me

I need sleep